shit is me.
Jan. 6th, 2010 20:50probably the lowest, if not the second lowest, point of my entire holiday. i feel like i'm SH*T itself. with some terrible headache on top.
i'm not satisfied with how my art homework turns out. it's not good at all. at first i was like, ok this is easy, it's your ideal theme and it's gonna be good, so just hang in there and do your prepwork.
but now i feel that this is not interesting at all and i don't wanna work on it anymore. i wanna rip them off but i have no time. NO FRIGGIN' TIME. idk if it's just me but IT'S JUST NOT INTERESTING AT ALL. it lacks depth and detail, gosh, it's just a plain block of cliff with a tree and books on top. and hyenas below.
plus i've got math, gp and chem hw, and a nagging mother to top it all off. in two days.
and i just read something that makes me realise how tiny and insignificant i am. how i am smaller than a speck of dust in this planet. how puny and foolish my goals are as an artist.
i have failed myself by writing this.
my head hurts ;____;
silently screaming as the water rushes in and drowns everything
and it was pure silence in grey and blue
i'm not satisfied with how my art homework turns out. it's not good at all. at first i was like, ok this is easy, it's your ideal theme and it's gonna be good, so just hang in there and do your prepwork.
but now i feel that this is not interesting at all and i don't wanna work on it anymore. i wanna rip them off but i have no time. NO FRIGGIN' TIME. idk if it's just me but IT'S JUST NOT INTERESTING AT ALL. it lacks depth and detail, gosh, it's just a plain block of cliff with a tree and books on top. and hyenas below.
plus i've got math, gp and chem hw, and a nagging mother to top it all off. in two days.
and i just read something that makes me realise how tiny and insignificant i am. how i am smaller than a speck of dust in this planet. how puny and foolish my goals are as an artist.
i have failed myself by writing this.
my head hurts ;____;
silently screaming as the water rushes in and drowns everything
and it was pure silence in grey and blue